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23 November 2013 @ 03:05 am
Abecassis, A: Pomoc, chce si me vzit

Adams, D: Stoparuv pruvodce po galaxii; Restaurant na konci vesmiru; Sbohem a dik za vsechny ryby; Zivot vesmir a vubec; Prevazne neskodna; Holisticka detektivni kancelar Dirka Gentlyho; Dlouhy temny cas svaciny duse

Adams, N: Pod maskounevinnosti

Adamson, J: Pribeh lvice maskou
Aldiss, B: Sklenik; Pokoleni starcu; Slintajici strom; Nonstop; Brothers of the Head; White Mars

Allen, R M: Kaliban

Ammaniti, N: Ik haal je op, ik neem je mee

Anderson, P: Kralovna vzduchu a temnot; Straz casu; Operation chaos; The unicorn trade

Andrews, V C: Heaven; Dark angel; Fallen hearts

Andronikova, H: Zvuk slunecnich hodin

Anson, J: The Amityville horror

Anthony, P: Zablesk pameti

Asimov, I: Ani sami bohove; Ja, robot; Pozitronovy muz; Broedt daar een mens; Ocelove jeskyne; Roboti usvitu; Roboti a imperium; Predehra k nadaci; Nadace; Nadace a rise; Druha nadace; Nadace na hranicich; Nadace a Zeme; Nemesis; Konec vecnosti; Hvezdy jako prach

Asprin, R: Dalsi prima mytus; Zrozeni mytu; Nastup mytu; Mytus pokracuje; Zradny mytus; Mytus v ohrozeni; MYTH inc. nastupuje; Mytus nebo mystifikace; MYTH inc. v akci; Sweet myth-tery of life; Myth-ion improbable

Bakker, S: Neuropath

Baldacci, D: The whole truth; Deliver us from evil; Saving Faith; Last man standing; Wish you well; Split second; Hour game; Simple genius; Familieverraad; The sixth man; Total control; The simple truth; The winner; The camel club; The collectors; Stone cold; Divine justice; The innocent; The hit; Zero day; The forgotten; One summer; Hell's corner; King and Maxwell; The Christmas train; True blue; Bullseye; The target; The escape; Memory man; The guilty

Balzac, H de: Dcera Evina

Barker, C: Hellbound heart

Beach, L: Ukradena mumie

Beckett, S: Chemie smrti

Bell, J: Massive

Bengtsson, F G: Zrzavy Orm

Bentum, A van: Tika

Beyle, H-M (Stendhal): Cerveny a cerny

Bischoff, D: Genocide

Block, T H: Mayday; Peklo v oblacich

Bocek, J: Pripad doktora Karpety; Udalost; Polka pro astralni zenu

Bolton, S J: Blood harvest

Boye, K: Kallocain

Bradbury, R: Jizda na slepo; 451 stupnu Fahrenheita; A graveyard for lunatics

Brewer, G: Svet podle prota; Na svetelnem paprsku

Brouwers, J: De zondvloed

Brown, D: Sifra mistra Leonarda; Andele a demoni; Pavucina lzi; Digitalni pevnost; The lost symbol; Inferno

Bukowski, Ch: Women

Buwalda, P: Bonita avenue

Capek, K: Zahradnikuv rok; Krakatit

Card, O S: Ender's game

Caspariova, T: Bravo Bibi; Nerozlucni pratele; Kamaradi v dobrem i zlem; Cerne nebezpeci; Domov pro kovboje; Prazdniny v sedle

Castle, J & Hailey, A: Let do nebezpeci

Chaloupka, O: Skareda streda

Charriere, H: Motylek

Cheney, T: Manic

Cherryh, C J: Kesrith; Shon'Jir; Kutath; The Morgaine saga; Exile's gate

Clarke, A C: Mesicni prach

Coben, H: Caught; Stay close; Just one look; The innocent; Hold tight; No second chance; Gone for good; Play dead; Tell no one

Coelho, P: Brida; The alchemist

Collins, S: The hunger games; Catching fire; Mockingjay

Cook, R: Invaze z galaxie; Zakrok

Crichton, M: Jursky park; Ztraceny svet; Sfeer; Korist; Kmen Andromeda; Airframe; De Nippon connectie; Timeline; The terminal man; State of fear; Disclosure; A case of need; Next; Congo; The great train robbery; Five patients; Pirate latitudes; Binary; Eaters of the dead

Crispin, A C: Alien ressurection

Cronin, J: Prechod

Daniken, E von: Prorok minulosti; Cesta na Kiribati; Oci Sfingy; Miluji cely svet

Deaver, J: The bone collector; The coffin dancer; The empty chair; The stone monkey; The vanished man; The twelfth card; The cold moon; The broken window; The kill room; The bodies left behind; Speaking in tongues; The blue nowhere; The skin collector; Praying for sleep; Edge; The sleeping doll; Roadside crosses; Xo; Solitude creek

Deckers, D: 111x Daphne

Defoe, D: Robinson Crusoe

Devenyi, T: Kariera Dr. Gezy Tamhletoho aneb vedci a hlodavci

Dickens, Ch: Nadejne vyhlidky

Dobzynski, Ch: Taromancie

Doyle, A C: Pes Baskervillsky

Dragtova, T: Dopis pro krale

Drda, J: Mestecko na dlani

Druon, M: Zelezny kral; Zardousena kralovna; Jedy Kralovstvi; Naslednik trunu; Francouzska vlcice; Lilie a lev; Kdyz kral ztraci Francii

Ehrman, B: Sifra mistra Leonarda pravda a smyslenky

Ellis, B E: American psycho

Evangelisti, V: Nostradamus de profetie

Evans, N: Zarikavac koni

Feuchtwanger, L: Lisky na vinici; Goya

Fiebag, J & Fiebag, P: Tajemstvi gralu

Flaubert, G: Pani Bovaryova

Foglar, J: Pristav vola; Boj o prvni misto; Hosi od Bobri reky; Kdyz duben prichazi; Pod junackou vlajkou; Devadesatka pokracuje; Zahada hlavolamu; Stinadla se bouri; Tajemstvi velkeho Vonta; Strach nad Bobri rekou; Chata v jezerni kotline; Tajemna Rasnovka; Nas oddil; Dobrodruzstvi v zemi nikoho; Modra rokle

Follett, K: Pilire Zeme; Na veky veku; Het Modigliani schandaal; Paper money; The third twin; Code to zero; A dangerous fortune; The key to Rebecca; Lie down with lions; The man from St. Petersburg; The hammer of Eden; Hornet flight; Eye of the needle; A place called freedom; Night over water; Whiteout

Foster, A D: Alien; Aliens; Alien 03

Francis, D: Smrt favorita; Nervy; Ohen a bic; Posledni sance; Souboj v letu; Cena krve; Hra na fanty; Vysetrovaci komise; Drahy cas; Tvrdy uder; Kourova clona; Chladna zrada; Drazby; Vysoke sazky; Motiv koni; Risk; Smrtici zkouska; Bic; Hra s cisly; Reflex; Ziva investice; Hrozba; Expert; Zralok; Zihadlo; Horke penize; V sachu; Cilova rovinka; Do cerneho; Navrat diplomata; Mezi koly; Rozcesti; Divoci kone; V nemilosti; Az za hrob; Za trest; Pole pro trinact; Hurikan; Strepy; Rozkazem

Francis, D & Francis, F: Mrtvy dostih; Talar a dres; Vyrovnany ucet

Francis, F: Sprizneni krvi

Freiova, L: Datum narozeni nula

Fuhman, F: Prometheus

Gaige, A: Schroder

Garen, J-P: V zelene pasti Rhulu

Genova, L: Still Alice; Inside the O'Brians; Left neglected

Gerritsen, T: The surgeon; The apprentice; The sinner; Body double; Vanish; The Mephisto club; The keepsake; Ice cold; Hartslag; Koud bloed; Koud hart; The silent girl; Alarmfase rood; Last to die; Girl missing; Life support; Die again; Playing with fire

Gibson, W: Neuromancer

Gijsen, W: Het beste dat je gebeuren kan

Goldberg, L: Mozkove vlny

Grant, D: Kralovstvi za veterinare

Graves, R R: Ja Claudius

Grin, A: Zlaty retez

Groom, W: Forrest Gump

Grossmith, G: Denik pana Nuly

Hailey, A: Konecna diagnoza; Letiste

Harris, T: Mlceni jehnatek; Cerveny drak; Hannibal

Harrison, H: Prvni planeta smrti; Druha planeta smrti; Treti planeta smrti; Zrozeni ocelove krysy; Ocelova krysa rukuje; Ocelova krysa zpiva blues; Ocelova krysa; Ocelova krysa se msti; Stroj casu znacka Hollywood; Misto, misto, vice mista; Planeta zatracenych; Planeta bez navratu; The stainless steel rat saves the world; Ocelova krysa jde po tobe; Ocelova krysa prezidentem; The stainless steel rat goes to hell; The stainless steel rat joins the circus; Valka s roboty; Homeworld; Wheelworld; Starworld

Harrison, H & Skalandis, A: Ctvrta planeta smrti - Navrat na planetu smrti/Planeta smrti na ceste bohu; Pata planeta smrti - Raj piratu/Peklo piratu

Hautzig, D: Second star to the right

Heinlein, R: Dvere do leta; Tunel do nebes; Vladci loutek; Sirotci oblohy; Vezmi si skafandr a bez; Vune strachu; Za timto horizontem; Cizinec v cizi zemi; Ruda planeta; Mesic je drsna milenka; Metuzalemovy deti; Obcan galaxie; Cas pro hvezdy; Hvezdny Lummox; Hvezdna kolonie; Cislo bestie; Minulost napric budoucnosti; Dvojnik; If this goes on; To sail beyond the sunset; Farnham's freehold; Podkayne of Mars

Heller, J: Hlava 22

Herbert, F: Duna

Herriot, J: To by se veterinari stat nemelo

Hornbacher, M: Wasted; Madness

Hrabal, B: Automat svet

Hubbard, R L: Des

Hugo, V: Devadesat tri

Hunter, E (McBain): Jako z lasky

Huxley, A: Konec civilizace

Jackson, S: The Haunting of Hill House

James, E. L: Fifty shades of Grey, Fifty shades darker, Fifty shades freed

Jirotka, Z: Saturnin

Jirotka, Z & et al: Sedmilhari

Jonasson, J: Stolety starik, ktery vylezl z okna a zmizel; Analfabetka, ktera umela pocitat

Kajdos, V: Invaze z vesmiru

Kaufman, B: Nahoru po schodisti dolu

Keyes, D: Ruze pro Algernon

King, S: Carrie

Kisch, E E: Prazsky pitaval

Klundert, R van de: Komt een vrouw bij de dokter; De weduwnaar

Kneifel, H: Cerna planeta

Knittel, J: Hakim

Kocka, M: Krev na palete

Koontz, D: Het masker; Verlossing; De sadist

Kornbluth, C M & Pohl, F: Obchodnici s vesmirem; Wolfsklauw

Kozik, F: Nejvetsi z Pierotu

Krepelkova, M: Pribeh zeny

Kulhanek, J: Vladci strachu; Nocni klub I; Nocni klub II; Cesta krve I - dobrak; Cesta krve II - cynik; Divoci a zli I - cas mrtvych; Divoci a zli II - hardcore; Divoci a zli III - temny prorok; Divoci a zli IV - krize; Smrt je nejlepsi lekar; Stroncium; Vyhlidka na vecnost

Lagercrantz, D:: The girl in a spider's web

Lanczova, L: Znameni blizencu; Lucky Luk I; Lucky Luk II; Kralovstvi za botu; Schody do nebe; Past na kocku; Super kotata; Mokra louka; Srdcovy kluk

Langbein, W-J: Poselstvi Mayu 2012

Larsson, S: Mannen die vrouwen haten; De vrouw die met vuur speelde; Gerechtigheid

Larionova, O: Cakra kentaura

Leacock, S: Literarni poklesky

Lem, S: Solaris

Levin, I: Rosemary's baby

Lewis, D: Tajna rec tela

Lindsay, J: Darkly dreaming Dexter; Deeply devoted Dexter; Dexter in the dark; Dexter by design; Dexter is delicious; Double Dexter; Dexter's final cut; Dexter is dead

Lodge, D: Hostujici profesori

Loukotkova, J: Navzdory basnik zpiva; Spartakus: pred nami boj; Spartakus: smrti boj nekonci; Doma lide umiraji; Odmena

Lovecraft, H P: Dagon and other macabre stories; The dream-quest of Unknown Kadath

Ludlum, R: The Bourne identity; The Bourne supremacy; The Bourne ultimatum

Maberry, J: Pacient nula

MacLean, A: Het satanskruid

Majerova, M: Robinsonka

Marek, F: Alchymista

Martin, G. R. R: A game of thrones; A clash of kings; A storm of swords; A feast for crows; A dance with dragons

Maurier, D du: Ptaci a jine povidky; Mrtva a ziva

Merle, R: Dedictvi otcu; V rozpuku mladi; Me dobre mesto Pariz; Vladar na scene; Horouci laska; Svitani

Michal, K: Bubaci pro vsedni den

Mijabe, M: Sepot

Moorcock, M: Knize mecu; Mesto selem; Vladce pavouku; Vladci propasti

Mostowicz, A: My z kosmu

Moudry, M (Jafff): Cesta krve III - kat

Mulisch, H: The discovery of heaven

Neff, O: Pole stastnych nahod

Neff, V: Kralovny nemaji nohy; Prsten Borgiu; Krasna carodejka

Nesbo, J: The bat; Cockroaches; The redbreast; Nemesis; The devil's star; The redeemer; The snowman; The leopard; Phantom; Police

Nesvadba, J: Vyprava opacnym smerem

Niven, L: Ringworld; The Ringworld engineers; The Ringworld throne; Ringworld's children; A world out of time; Crashlander; Protector

Niven, L & Pournelle, J: Inferno

Niven, L, Pournelle, J & Barnes, S: The legacy of Heorot; Beowulf's children

Noort, S: De eetclub

Orwell, G: 1984; Farma zvirat

Paral, V: Mlady muz a bila velryba

Pargeter, E: Zelena ratolest; Nebesky strom

Parkinson, C N: Zakony profesora Parkinsona

Payne, C D: Youth in revolt; Youth in bondage; Youth in exile; Revolting youth; Young and revolting; Holubi mambo

Pechacek, L: Jak svet prichazi o basniky; Jak basnici prichazeji o iluze; Jak basnikum chutna zivot

Perry, S: Earth hive; Nightmare asylum; The female war; Labyrinth

Pike, C: Prisera

Plath, S: The bell jar

Poe, E A: Predcasny pohreb a jine povidky

Pohl, F: The coming of the quantum cats; Teror; Drunkard's walk

Pratchett, T: Barva kouzel; The light fantastic; Caropravnost; Mort; Pyramids; Reaper man; Witches abroad; Carpe jugulum; Guards Guards; Faust Eric; Moving pictures; Small gods; Lords and ladies; Thief of time; Jingo; Men at arms; Feet of clay; The fifth elephant; Night watch; Thud; Soul music; Hogfather; Wyrd sisters; Maskerade; Podivny regiment; Nefalsovana kocka; Interesting times; The last continent; The truth; The last hero; Snuff; Amazing Maurice; Going postal; Making money

Pribsky, V: Muj muz kral Karel IV; Milenec kralovny vdovy

Prus, B: Farao

Puzo, M: Kmotr

Rada, V & Zak, J: Vzpoura na lodi Primator Dittrich

Reichs, K: Deja dead; Death du jour; Deadly decisions

Remarque, E M: Brana vitezstvi; Nebe nezna vyvolenych; Die nacht in Lissabon

Robinson, F M & Scortia, T N: Sklenene peklo

Robotham, M: Say you're sorry; Life or death; Vuurvast; De verdenking; Lost; Shatter; Bleed for me; Watching you; Close your eyes

Roo, S de & Tardio, N: Spiegelbeeld

Rowling, J K: Harry Potter a kamen mudrcu; Harry Potter a tajemna komnata; Harry Potter a vezen z Azkabanu; Harry Potter a ohnivy pohar; Harry Potter a fenixuv rad; Harry Potter and the half-blood prince; Harry Potter and the deathly hallows

Saint-Exupery, A de: Maly princ

Salvatore, R A: Homeland; Exile; Sojourn

Sapkowski, A: Stribrny mec

Schaap, P: Kringen op het zompersven; Ondeeds de Loutere

Schulz, K: Kamen a bolest

Scott, W: Nevesta z Lammermooru

Sheckley, R: Omega, planeta zla; Alien harvest

Sheldon, S: Mistrovska hra

Siegel, B & S: Chladna hruza

Sienkiewicz, H: Quo vadis; Ohnem a mecem

Simak, C D: Poselstvi z vesmiru; Project pope; The fellowship of the talisman

Skvorecky, J: Tankovy prapor

Slaughter, K: Genesis, Blindsighted; Kisscut; A faint cold fear; Indelible; Faithless; Skin privilege; Triptych; Fractured; Broken; Fallen; Criminal; Unseen; Snatched; Cop town; Pretty girls; The kept woman

Soucek, L: Pripad baskervillskeho psa a dalsi pribehy; Hippokratuv slib; Tuseni stinu; Tuseni souvislosti; Otazniky nad hroby; Blazni z Hepteridy; Cesta slepych ptaku; Runa rider; Slunecni jezero

Sternberg, J: Divka, more a noc

Stevens, A: De crypte; Grafstilte; Schemerzone

Stine, R L: Pronasledovana; Letni stvanice; Vikend na lyzich; Zaludne zlo; Smrt ze zahrobi

Stout, R: Pravo na smrt

Strugatski, A & Strugatski, B: Brouk v mravenisti; Pondeli zacina v sobotu; Pohadka o trojce; Les; Miliardu let pred koncem sveta; Je tezke byt bohem

Svandrlik, M: Morsky vlk a vesela vdova aneb proti vsem; Cerni baroni

Tenn, W: Lide a netvori

Thomason, D: 21-12

Thurber, J: Filosof a ustrice

Tolkien, J R R: Spolecenstvo prstenu; Dve veze; Navrat krale; Hobit aneb cesta tam a zase zpatky

Toufar, P: Kosmicky zabijak; Otazniky prichazeji z hvezd

Traven, B: Lod mrtvych

Turow, S: Innocent; Presumed innocent; The burden of proof; Personal injuries; Reversible errors; Pleading guilty

Twain, M: Dopisy z planety Zeme; Yankee z Connecticutu na dvore krale Artuse

Vankova, L: Mosty pres propast casu; Pan stribrne ruze; Valka ruzi

Varley, J: Titan; Wizard; Demon

Varsavskij, I: Homunkulus aneb zevrubna kybernetologie

Viewegh, M: Vychova divek v Cechach

Viewegh, M & et al: A cely zivot budem stastny...

Vlugt, S van der: Aan niemand vertellen

Volny, Z: Pozar u Zlatych labuti

Vonnegut, K Jr: Mechanicke piano

Vyskocil, I: Male hry; Vzdyt prece letat je snadne

Waltari, M: Egyptan Sinuhet

Werber, B: Mravenci, Den mravencu

Werich, J: Italske prazdniny

Whyte, J: Chramova hora; Korouhev cti; Zkaza radu

Wilde, O: Cantervillske strasidlo a jine prozy

Wilhelm, A: Project Babylon; Project Sakkara; Project Atlantis

Wyndham, J: Den trifidu; Kukly; Kraken se probouzi; The Midwich cuckoos; Stowaway to Mars

Zajdel, J A: Limes Inferior; Vynalez profesora van Troffa

Zak, J: Pan Posleda, pritel studaku

Zelazny, R: Nine princes in Amber; The guns of Avalon; Sign of the unicorn; The hand of Oberon; The courts of Chaos; Trumfy osudu; Krev Amberu; Znameni Chaosu; Rytir stinu; Princ Chaosu; Roadmarks; He who shapes

Zillmer, H-J: Omyly v dejinach Zeme; Darwinuv omyl

Zimmer Bradley, M: Pristani; Vladkyne jestrabu; Kralovna boure; Dvojnici; Dedici Hammerfellu; Pretrzeny retez; Dum Thendara; Mesto kouzel; The spell sword; The forbidden tower; Star of danger; The winds of Darkover; The Bloody sun; The heritage of Hastur; The planet savers; Sharra's exile; The world wreckers

Zimmer Bradley, M & Lackey, M: Rediscovery

Zimmer Bradley, M & Martine-Barnes, A: Exile's song; The shadow matrix; Traitor's sun

Zimmer Bradley, M & Ross, D J: The fall of Neskaya; Zandru's forge; A flame in Hali

Zola, E: U Stesti dam; The fortune of the Rougons
 
 
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Current Music: The Cranberries ~ Promises
 
 
Happily ever after
01 January 2010 @ 08:02 am
This journal is (semi) friends-only; all that touches a personal subject is locked.

You know the drill; comment to be considered. Thank you.
 
 
Happily ever after
23 December 2007 @ 05:42 am
I just do not know ... how to do this. I have no idea. I think I do not fully realize the extent of the disaster yet, because he has been gone since the beginning of October so I had plenty of time missing him already.

I wanted to know what has become of him rather than the uncertainty, but now that I come to think of it, it might have proven to be the 'this hurts too much do not know how to deal with it will try anything' kind of wanting. I think in truth, now that I know what I talk about, decidedly I did not want to know. And now the options are up; there is nothing else to try.

No damn sleep for me tonight ?

Is right; I deserve no rest. I received a message through one of the parrot boards, from the breeder of Wru, asking me to call him. I did and he ... told me a funny thing happened; he got a call from someone claiming he has found ... a dead parrot, with his band, and that the number corresponded with the identification code our Wru had. Whether I wanted to explain.

I did not tell him as of yet, because I could not bear to hurt him that way as I promised to keep his baby safe ... he is the kind that actually chooses whom his babies go to, and who is known to send a wannabe-parront away now and then; I broke the trust he put in me, and he does not even know how badly. I doubt I will dare to tell the whole truth.

So after all, my beautiful boy did find his way back.



Now I will have to mail his breeder the explanation ... some more addition for my things-to-do list (I have been so good with errands lately). I will also have to find out what actually happened ... where he was found (I asked twice, cannot recall what has been said), how long ago, what happened to him ... ask if I could get him back (should I ? I cannot decide whether it will matter to me in the long run and whether it would be positive of negative. Do I want to possibly find out what people do to a found dead bird ? What would be the best in respect of Whu himself ... because I can possibly not hurt more ?) ? Maybe I could get the band ... would mean I will know they severed my gorgeous boys' little foot to take it off; all of it breaks my heart because he was perfect. If I am to have any chance at all of getting anything of him back, I need to go back to the breeder asap and start finding out ... meaning I have to make the long explanatory mail/call I so do not need right now ... I wonder what course of action I should take that will make me hate myself the least in the end.

How can you even survive ... being responsible for the death of what you loved the most in this world ... what depended on you like a child depends on its' parent, and for what you have taken the vow to keep safe and protected ? How can you go on with the knowledge you killed something this perfect and innocent ... The reason I even still am here is Aswan; for her I did not leave. And while her little brother was not with us for all that long, I loved him deeply none the less. The pain is endless; indescribable, inescapable. I have images in my head ... of him, starving and freezing, with the little feet in the icy frosting on the branches of trees ... it is beautiful; such a beautiful winter I have not seen here before, the trees are white with frozen mist; en mogen al die rotbeesten daar in het bos doodvriezen --- wel mijn rotbeest is al dood; I do not know if he died of malnutrition or froze to death; what would be less horrible anyway ? All the time, he flew around there somewhere, hungry, cold and lonely, scared ... how utterly scared he must have been, not letting himself to be caught (because this parrot loved people and loved food; he was not in the least afraid of strangers), hurting with his trust in me broken, not understanding, knowing only that I allowed that to happen to him ... just --- I don't know. No words I think. I wish he ... died --- knowing I am sorry.

And if I did go and jump off the building because everyone would have been better off, then, as my brother once suggested, all this would have not happened. Regardless the pain I cause to my beloveds left and right, with this --- with the death of my precious little boy, my existence has become most taxing. Too much is too much ... and instead of finding Aswan a better home like I should have, I take upon myself the responsibility for another creature regardless of proving to not be capable of being a good parent to them. Because in essence ... all good pet ownership comes down to is keeping them alive in the first place. Or not letting them die in stupid, unnecessary happenings ... in the very least.

All the way down, I kept asking ... could this hurt more. Yes it does indeed --- until there is nothing left of what you appreciate ---

My head hurts so much. I thank you all who cared enough to offer your sympathy ... it is appreciated.




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Current Music: Saturnus ~ Noir
 
 
Happily ever after
22 December 2007 @ 04:58 pm
My beautiful green baby is dead. 
 
 
Happily ever after
13 December 2007 @ 07:01 am
Heh. Did I mention I am weaponed ? Snatched SO's Canon again; something the kids apparently failed to notice.





Blind shots in full darkness just upon awakening ... when the lights went on, of course proceeded to arguing as the etiquette commands (because what-you-don't-see-doesn't-exist-right), but the historical moment has been recorded in image.

But shhh; we did not see anything now, did we.




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Current Music: Antimatter ~ Saviour
 
 
 
Happily ever after
12 December 2007 @ 12:32 pm
You know, there is an actual reason for the fact that all of the smart help-yourself books on assertiveness mention such a thing as 'personal space'.

If you move n-times closer to me and I move n+1-times away from you, you should consider to get the message.

Seriously. I am all in for physical contact and that, but if I have no desire for a mid-life-crisised creep accompanied by a sweaty glittering forehead and a shopping cart full of junk breathing in my neck, do not stand so close to me. Just do not. Certainly it is rude to ask politely within a joke so that you do not have to feel embarrassed in front of the other people around, I apologize ... it was necessary, though; otherwise, I would have to have hit you.

I hate when people do that. Why do people do that ? Why would anyone even want to stand close to someone who obviously does not want them close ? I do not believe she did not notice; she could not not notice; everyone in the perimeter of 10 m noticed my stress and panicky attempts to flee. I hate to be touched by strangers, even accidentally ... (and did I have some good training at avoiding that in my youth years; memories of the good ole' PC adventures of an 'East-block' capital city). And I just saw it happen, so I stress out and try to get away, and she would not pay attention ...

Brrr. Though genuinely nauseated, back in the safety of my room again. I think that was it for today in regards of daring to venture out. No, no, the world is a place too vile for me; all sorts of things happen out there.




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Current Music: Saturnus ~ Noir
 
 
Happily ever after
04 December 2007 @ 10:40 am
I am very much in need of some good thoughts, my friends, so that is bad news for you. Here starts the Ireland saga; prepare for the huge entry, one of many, though cut for your convenience.

I have been to Ireland this August, 15-28/07, and I decided I should go on vacation more often. I have no means of describing how awesome it was and how much I fell in love with the country (thus I hope I can transfer some of those summer feelings to you through the pictures). I went there with a good friend and came back with the significant other.


I have something to torture you with during the long winter evenings that are to come, because as you see, we came back with loads of pictures and these above have been two days out of the two weeks.




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Happily ever after
02 December 2007 @ 09:59 am
 Look what I woke up to this morning !



For you in order to understand, I will tell you what you are looking at : two parrots that have seen each other for the first time exactly a week ago, and who are side by side peacefully eating their meal . That, while she is the first Grey he has ever seen and he is the first Cockatoo she has ever seen, with that funny crest causing them both jump away from each other for the first few days.

I have had sleeping them in the same cage from day 1, which is amazing in itself; though they did sleep on the opposite sides of the cage. This morning I was a little late with getting up (meaning 08:20; the life of a parrot mommy is no walk in the park because there is always a meal to be fixed, heh), so upon waking up and turning my head to the cage instinctively to check up on the kids, I see them sitting on the perch side by side this close for the first time, as if they have never done differently, searching for food in the empty bowls and looking up at me with the very same reproachful expression on both the faces (how does mommy dare to sleep when the tummies are empty !?!).

Damn I am proud of them.




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Current Music: Madrugada ~ Step into this room and dance for me
 
 
Happily ever after
01 December 2007 @ 03:50 am
Now I have to kill my dad.

See the time of the previous entry ? Now count back; it is 03:34 and I am wide awake again because apparently he is dying-sick and needed to fix himself tea, making so much noise it seemed the whole f*cking house is coming down. Not the first round of tea this night, either. I feel very sorry for him because he is not well, I really do, but I am not well either; I am exhausted, and tomorrow he will be even less well because the crankiness will burst through my ears.

(But nooo, he will want me to be NORMAL and run all the errands with him)

I have decided that for pink, this time is as good as any time.





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Current Music: Tiamat ~ Cold seed
 
 
Happily ever after
27 November 2007 @ 02:20 am
Tas  
Alright, I officially give up on this night. It finally hit me as I knew it would, so I have been bawling all night long and now I am exhausted and tired of myself.

I have ... the world's most beautiful creation sitting in the cage next to me since Sunday afternoon, and I would give anything for it to be not this intensely stunning Tas sitting there looking at me with those huge soft black watery baby-eyes being lovely, but my little Wru. Anything. It would be a 'peek-a-boo', then, followed by him running to me as if for his life, burying into my shoulder with a few baby-squeaks and fighting with me with all the might and foxiness he could muster to not be put into bed anywhere else but on me. Because where Aswan is the flirt to men and loves my dad and my boyfriend, Wru was my baby; Wru was the one who would fly around the house following me, and who would sleep with me on the couch like a two months old while we watched the TV.

We have called him Tastrophy, and although it might look as if I have found myself a substitute for Wru very quickly, I know I did not, and I need him to heal from the loss of my baby (I never will entirely; you never do) and I know I do am a good mother to my babies. I still believe; have to believe, that Wru will find his way back to us one day. Or that he is alive, at the very least.








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