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Happily ever after
11 October 2007 @ 03:45 am
I have to run, because when I stop running, I break from the guilt and worries, and everything comes down on me. I lay awake thinking about my beautiful boy sitting there somewhere alone in the night, unable to contain the pain, to contain what I have brought on us with my unbelievable, unforgivable stupidity.

I should have known better; I always knew better than that, and nonetheless ...

Thus I run, and will run, because I am afraid of the moment I stop and have to be alone with myself and face ... that.



There is no comfort.



So I will go and keep myself occupated.

You know what I do when I feel miserable ? I desperately try to make others happy. What do you ?





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Current Mood: apatheticApathetic
Current Music: Virgin Black ~ ... And I am suffering
 
 
Happily ever after
08 October 2007 @ 12:07 pm
Wru is gone. Please pray and hope for us, with us, for his safe return, if you can. I know I have been gone for long and have let everyone down, but I need this and after this, I will be back and will be here for everyone. I swear that.

He is somewhere in the forest, which is good, because he is as safe from the predators as he can be, and it is relatively warm and there is a lot of food around. He is smart, he will see what the other birds eat, and he loves to eat and isn't picky so he will not starve. He can fly, and he is emotionally strong and flexible and he is in great physical shape, so he will not exhaust himself, so that he can better battle the temperature. He is as tame as possible, he loves people, so he will respond to them. And there are thousands walking routes in the forest where thousands dog owners walk on daily basis ... if someone stands a chance, than it's my parrot. So much higher than when one of those clipped livingroom cageparrots escape. We have spread the word, so everyone who comes in the forest will look, and he will be found.

Let's pray that in the meantime, he doesn't run into a predator, and that he doesn't run into a poisonous tree/plant.

We had such a lovely day ... until I did what I would NEVER do, and if he dies, I have killed him with my stupidity. I have no idea why I did it, and the stupidity of the deed hurt and will be paid. But not now, now please pray or hope or with with us, because he must and will return to us. Thank you.




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Happily ever after
12 August 2006 @ 09:35 pm





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Current Mood: lovedLoved
Current Music: Nickelback ~ Leader of Men
 
 
Happily ever after
17 July 2006 @ 09:49 am
Pretty babyCollapse )




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Current Mood: Bouncy
Current Music: 3 Doors Down ~ Loser
 
 
Happily ever after
12 June 2006 @ 01:53 pm
I think I hold a little strange feeling towards our vegetable farmer right now. I went there and bought 2kg (4.4lb) of cherries. She put them in their standard plastic bag. Once headed home, at a certain point, the bag burst along the bottom seam.




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Current Mood: complacentCarefree
Current Music: Robbie Williams ~ Supreme
 
 
 
Happily ever after
07 June 2006 @ 08:25 am
Same reasons, nothing personal.




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Current Mood: apatheticApathetic
Current Music: Silverchair ~ Black Tangled Heart
 
 
Happily ever after
23 May 2006 @ 09:30 am
You never knew what that distinct feeling of missing something was until you have shared your bath with a parrot.


Floof !


You know the boy and his blanket ? I give you the boy and his ...

MmmCollapse )

... shower curtain !?!




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Current Mood: Bouncy
Current Music: Deep Purple ~ Child in Time
 
 
Happily ever after
01 May 2006 @ 06:08 pm
After a bath worth an hour of my life and a nice face peeling and all those things girls generally like to do and I generally despise greatly, I got to the point of feeling almost like a human. Now I only need to look like one.

I am tired beyond any polite measure. And cranky.

I could not sleep on Friday (birdsitted birds decided we need a jungle at 6:15 am), I could not sleep on Saturday (some stupid fuck had to start working on the cobblestones of the parking place right under our windows, making our walls shake and producing noise of the volume and style I always connected with earthquakes at 7:45 am), on Sunday (cat decided he has to and WILL venture out at 7:00 am) and I definitely did not have enough sleep on Monday, either, because the wonderrrful, lovely and nice (grinding teeth) kitty placed himself in the middle of our hall upstairs - for echo - and began meowing at the top of his lungs at 4 o' clock in the morning. There are times that pets are way more joy than one can handle.

Other than that, life is sweet. Lived by the rules of parroty duties and cat ointment. I spend an hour and half every morning chopping vegetables, cleaning cages, changing water and doing the usual morning dance of a parrot owner x 4. Then I dig the cat out of the farthest corner under the bed for a little kitty-wrestling that became a habit over the past week in order to apply cat eye ointment into his human's eyes (and mouth and nose and ears and in the couch too). I am fortunate enough to have a cat that understands that my poor humanly skill and courage does not suffice to apply my cat ointment all by me onesies and lends himself for assistance every single time, three times a day. His patience is priceless. I am filled with sorrow by the fact we are going for the check-out appointment tomorrow already and after that, there will probably be no more cat ointment.




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Current Mood: mellowMellow
Current Music: Madonna ~ Frozen
 
 
Happily ever after
04 April 2006 @ 09:25 am
I have a bird that turns purple when he feels like itCollapse )




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Current Mood: cheerfulCheerful
Current Music: Lost Prophets ~ Need You Tonight
 
 
Happily ever after
04 April 2006 @ 04:43 am
I would like to fall asleep now. Thank you.




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Current Mood: annoyedAwake
Current Music: Faithless ~ Baseball Cap